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Home ...

is where the heart is ...

Where is my heart? Is it with my family? Who is my family? Is it my Dad? Is it my mother? My sisters? My Grandparents? My cousins? My boyfriend?

Why must it be so hard? Why must family live on different continents? Different cities?

Where do I feel at home? I feel home with my boyfriend, my love. But I also feel home when I am back at the family picnic. Back with my family.

My life could be different if my parents hadn't split up. Would it be better? Would it be worse? Would I be a different person? Would I hate my Dad cause he was too strict when I grew up? Would I love my mother? Would I be successful at a job? Would I have dated a lot during Highschool?

Well, I'll never know. I only know how my life has turned out not how it would have.

Maybe I should put aside all those questions. Most of them were with me all my life. But maybe I should just see what I have: a lovin boyfriend who means everything to me, great friends who would go through fire for me, and a family I am not seeing often, but I love them nevertheless.

I am a lucky girl, if I look at it that way. I can't have it all even if I wish. But sometimes I do.

Why can't life be easier? Or at least feelings?

Talent ...

is a wonderful thing. I don't have any :) , but I'm really proud to have relatives who do.

Like my cousin Jackie. Her talent is to touch peoples heart and soul with her words. She now started a blog where she hopefully will put up a lot of those. she started with this "little something":

http://epicsbehindeyelids.blogspot.com/2009/10/needles.html?showComment=1256983110007#c7775674628729089753

Please read it and let her now your thoughts :)

Love,

Sasa

80 sec around the world - travel with us :)

Poem

Theodor Fontane:
John Maynard!
- Translated by Julie and Amy Huberman -

"Who is John Maynard?"

"John Maynard was our helmsman true.
To solid land he carried us through.
He saved our lives, our noble king.
He died for us; his praise we sing.
John Maynard."

*

From Detroit to Buffalo
As mist sprays her bow like flakes of snow
Over Lake Erie the "Swallow" takes flight
And every heart is joyful and light.
In the dusk, the passengers all
Can already make out the dim landfall,
And approaching John Maynard, their hearts free of care,
They ask of their helmsman, "Are we almost there?"
He looks around and toward the shore:
"Still 30 minutes.... a half hour more."

All hearts are happy, all hearts are light --
Then out of the hold comes a cry of fright.
"Fire!" it is, that terrified shout.
From the cabin and hatch black smoke pours out.
Smoke, then fire and flames aglow,
And still 20 minutes to Buffalo.

And the passengers, in a colorful crowd
Stand pressed together on the bow.
Up on the bow there is still air and light
But the smoke at the helm forms a thick, dark night.
"Where are we? Where?" the men must know,
And still 15 minutes to Buffalo. --

The wind grows strong but the smoke cloud stays.
To the helm the captain turns his gaze.
The helmsman is hidden by the raging fires
But through the bullhorn the captain enquires:
"Still there, John Maynard?"
"Yes, sir. I am."
"Onto the beach! Into the surf!"
"Yes, sir. That's my plan."
And the people cry: "Hold on! Hallo!"
And still 10 minutes to Buffalo.--

"Still there, John Maynard?" And the answer is clear,
Though with dying voice: "Yes, sir. I'm still here."
And in the surf, rocks, obstacles afloat,
Into their midst he plunges the boat.
To be saved, it's the only way to go.
Salvation: the shores of Buffalo!

*

The fire is out. The ship's run aground.
All are saved. Only one can't be found.

*

The bells ring out, their notes all fly
From churches and chapels to heaven on high.
The city is still but for funeral bells.
For one service only the sad sound swells:
In the procession ten thousand go by,
Or maybe more -- and not one dry eye.

With layers of flowers the grave they soften.
Under more flowers they bury the coffin.
With golden script in marble stone
The city has its tribute shown:

"Here lies John Maynard! In smoke and fire
He held fast to the wheel; he did not tire.
He saved our lives, our noble king.
He died for us; his praise we sing.
John Maynard!"

by Theodor Fontane

Rabbit

I am a rabbit ...

Personality

Occupying the 4th position in the Chinese Zodiac, the Rabbit symbolizes such character traits as creativity, compassion, and sensitivity. Rabbits are friendly, outgoing and prefer the company of others. They also prefer to avoid conflict. In confrontational situations, Rabbits approach calmly and with consideration for the other party. Rabbits believe strongly in friends and family and lacking such bonds can lead to emotional issues.

Their serene nature keeps Rabbits from becoming visibly upset. Because they’re serene animals, Rabbits are easily taken advantage of. Their sensitive nature makes them shy away from aggressive or competitive situations. They’re overall conservative and not interested in taking risks.

Classy, sophisticated, expressive, well-mannered and stylish, those born under the Sign of the Rabbit enjoy leaning about cultural issues and learning about people from other countries. Rabbits are most comfortable being home, and their homes are always neat and organized. Home is also where Rabbits prefer to entertain. Rabbits are conservative in their decorating tastes.

Rabbits should work at building more self-confidence and self-worth so they can feel more secure. The desire for remaining in safe, comfortable environments keeps Rabbits from taking risks which sometimes causes them to miss out on good opportunities.

Health

Even though Rabbits don’t usually get visibly upset or stressed, they do tend to keep these feelings inside. When they don’t express these feelings, such feeling can cause Rabbits to become ill. Rabbits could benefit from more everyday activity which would reduce their stress levels and better their health.

Relationships

Rabbits are very sexual, but tend to give more of themselves than they should. This can lead to unrealistic expectations and unhealthy situations. Rabbits need partners who won’t take advantage of their giving nature. Such pairings will be strong.

Career

Rabbits are articulate and good communicators which is why friends and acquaintances seek out their advice. It’s also why Rabbits make excellent diplomats and politicians. Other good careers for Rabbits include: writer, publisher, actor, fashion designer, therapist, doctor, administrator, public relations, and teacher.

Fire Rabbits – Years 1927 and 1987

Fire adds spark to the Rabbit’s personality and all that Fire Rabbits do. Fire compels Rabbits to seek new adventures. Prone to tantrums, Fire Rabbits prefer to avoid conflict.

Compatibility

The Rabbit is most compatible with the Pig and Dog and incompatible with the Rooster and Rat.

Libera - Air

A Normal Day

Snooker

Yesterday my boyfriend and I went to play Snooker with another couple. I was pretty much fun, though I really suck at it. we lost the first 2 games, but i didn't really care cause it was fun. then, the third game I didn't play and made a break. so my boyfriend was on his own against the other couple.
it didn't take long until they argued. he forgot once or twice to let her shoot, so she was sooooo pissed. they argued pretty bad and she almost left without him.
after this game we ended the snooker experience.

well, afterwards I felt really bad. I kinda felt good during their argument, cause for once it wasn't me and my boyfriend who were arguing. besides did we ever fight that hard?

Am I a bad person?

To The Snooty Guys ... A few thoughts on WMG

Mamma Mia!

Confused

confused feelings
confused hearts
confused relationship
confused thoughts
confused mind

but one thing is crystal clear

Hugh Jackman's Opening Performance at the 2009 Oscars

I need your opinion!

Starting ...

I started another Blog due to circumstances ...

President Obama Addresses Economic Crisis

To be - or not to be ...

This is so funny!

Happy, sad, happy and excited.

Soulmate (cover version by Nic)

MIKA - Love Today

Love Love ME

Today is awesome, because .... :)

Today was a pretty eventful day already (it's not even over yet).

First, while cleaning, I found my boyfriends ring and two of his ear-piercings. That was awesome cause we thought we lost them during moving. And I found my ID. Yeah I didn't know where it was, but I found it in one of my purses. should have put it in my wallet ...
Then I went grocery shopping and bought myself chocolate pudding. I haven't had that for an eternity. so this is awesome too ;)
On my way home I saw some teenage boys (little hoppers) how they tried to crack a cigarette machine open. I called the police. As far as I know they didn't get them though. That was not that awesome, but exciting ;)
And I had cake already today :D
And I'll go out tonight. My boyfriend wants to take me to a little pub in Munich. I never was there before.
And yesterday when I met some friends, they told me something great. well, kinda. One of our group died of cancer some while ago. and the heirs now got everything she wanted them to have. the rest she wants us to have, says her will. so all of her clothes, plates, cupboards etc belongs to us and on Saturday we'll all meet to share that. I can't get her clothes cause she was half of me :D but she owned 3 shoe closets, and I want one of them, cause we don't have one. So this is awesome too :D (kinda)

Love ya all :X

Re:

The Bloody Olive

For Them - Troye Sivan Original

My Silvester ...

... was aweful.

We were invited to my boyfriends best friend (I don't like him). They live in a small village an hour away from us. this family has money and you can see it everywhere in their house. This 30-year old man lives still with his mommy by the way. they are snobs!
But very good party hosts ... (get the irony?)
oh I had so much fun! How wouldn't I? It's so much fun doing the dishes while the host is sitting in the living room, watching TV and smooching with his girlfriend.

I was so angry. My mood was really bad and I told my boyfriend about what I was thinking. And all he could think of to say was: "That's him. He was always like this." Oh my!

So: Happy New year! lol