Where is my heart? Is it with my family? Who is my family? Is it my Dad? Is it my mother? My sisters? My Grandparents? My cousins? My boyfriend?
Why must it be so hard? Why must family live on different continents? Different cities?
Where do I feel at home? I feel home with my boyfriend, my love. But I also feel home when I am back at the family picnic. Back with my family.
My life could be different if my parents hadn't split up. Would it be better? Would it be worse? Would I be a different person? Would I hate my Dad cause he was too strict when I grew up? Would I love my mother? Would I be successful at a job? Would I have dated a lot during Highschool?
Well, I'll never know. I only know how my life has turned out not how it would have.
Maybe I should put aside all those questions. Most of them were with me all my life. But maybe I should just see what I have: a lovin boyfriend who means everything to me, great friends who would go through fire for me, and a family I am not seeing often, but I love them nevertheless.
I am a lucky girl, if I look at it that way. I can't have it all even if I wish. But sometimes I do.
Why can't life be easier? Or at least feelings?
4 Kommentare:
I wish anytime you can left the pain of your childhood behind you. Sometimes life is a bitch! I know about this particularly.
Work on your past, but not too often. Realize what you have in present times. And look forward to all the love that will come.
I only can imagine, what you are feeling in your deepest. But I´m realy good in feeling with someone, so I have a litte idea what´s moving you inside.
Believe me, I´ll always carry a little piece of your thoughts with me.
I hope, you will always have beloved and loving persons around you.
And hey, I rescued you from drowning years ago an all you said was: "My sausage sandwich is wet!" What I want to tell you: you´re special! In a likeable way!
:) Thank you so much for your comment. What's your name?
Oh, forgot to tell you that MK stands for Melanie Klees :-) Have a great day
:D ahhhh OMG you read my blog?!? haha
You rescued me from drowning?
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